To be & not to be

To be & not to be
(with my apology to w.shaksber)
I know its strange what iam going to write ,
but that is some thing i feel and it hurts me .
its hard to be cheated in people one day you thought they are your best friends and u cannot live without them and at once i discover the reverse.
they treat me if i were invisible for them.despite my love for them
i told them every thing about me and shared my happiness and sadden with them.
and after that they keep me away from their live , ignore me and don't tell me any thing .
i don't know why i shocked usually in people; the close ones specially .
and its hard to feel you are rejected and alone.
no body need you , no body hear you, listen to you, feel with your pain, talk to you when he need some body to mitigate his pain , no body remember you or ask about you.
although i remember them many times .
its horrible when you need some one to be beside you and you can't find him.
its horrible when your friends leave you with out any explanation or a clear reason.
when some one say some thing about you and its not the truth and tour friend know that but say nothing and prefer silence .
it hard for me to be with out friends ;
but sure one day I WILL ADAPT WITH THIS SITUATION .